Dear Future Andrew,
Firstly, I hope your taint is good. Sorry. I hope you’re still as awkward as you were. I think that might be genetic, I don’t know. Anyways, I wanted to make this message to let you know however things turn out, that you were here once and things were bad. I know sometimes you don’t want to admit that things aren’t okay, but they aren’t right now. And that’s okay. I hope things are better.
You know, it’s scary. I’m sitting here at our desk thinking about all the things that could go wrong in the next year. And I’m terrified. It’s scary letting go and attempting to change your entire world. But if anyone has the courage to do so, we do. Remember when we thought we didn’t have courage? But you told your friends despite bad poutine timing and read the letter to your parents and everything changed when the fire nation attacked.
I can’t say I hope you find all the peace you’re looking for, but I hope you find some of it. You deserve it. And I know you remind yourself a lot you don’t, but you do. You deserve so much kindness and joy, it’s unbelievable. I’m proud of you, wherever you are.
I hope mom and dad are okay, tell them you love them more. I guess Ryan’s started college by now. Your baby brother is growing up so fast. Don’t feel the need to protect him so much. He’ll learn just like you. I hope Nunna and Nunnu and Nunna and Uncle Joe are still in the picture. I know it must of been difficult telling them, and I know they probably don’t understand who you are, but be patient and kind. Especially when it gets difficult. I hope you’re more connected to those who love you.
It’s been a long year for me. It’s probably been a long year for you too. Some things I probably can’t even believe have happened. If time machines get invented read this and come back. No I’m joking don’t, don’t mess with time you fucking nerd.
Read this and smile. Say “I love me” outloud. I don’t know if at this point you’ll believe it, I hope you do. I’m sure you’ve done amazing. Accomplished more and more. Saved the world a little bit. Is there a boy??? That’d be cool if there was. If not, that’s cool too. Remember what it’s like to be alone. Remember what it’s like to be scared. Always remember what suffering was like. It makes you compassionate. I know that will always be important to you.
No matter what happens, no matter how bad it gets, you can do it. You can beat this, and you can get to a better place. Believe in yourself. You are so much stronger than you know. Right now I am stuck in a bad, painful place, physically and mentally. I hope you aren’t in that place. I know you won’t be. You’re too good. You have light and peace inside of you. Yeah, direct Iroh reference. You better still be a huge nerd for Korra, I know how much that means to you.
Andrew, find the light in the dark. And I love you.
Love, Past Andrew.
[December 31st, 2014]
Why I have to leave Tumblr.
Last time I reblog this. Thanks for everything everyone. Have an incredible year.
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At the risk of being overdramatic, I think it’s kind of comforting and utterly terrifying that I won’t know what this picture of me will mean in a years time. There’s a part of me that knows I will be completely different. I hope I can look back at this and feel proud about how far I’ve come. I hope the person I am in a year learns to smile more.
Yep, when I get back I’ll be using this blog. Thanks so much for your kind words. Everyone’s been so supportive. I appreciate it.
Not a stupid question. I’m going to be doing a lot more of what I love. Less time glued to the computer more time reading the extensive amount of books that I’ve collected and seems to be growing. I love reading and I feel it makes me better so that’s what I’ll be focused on. Maybe watching some more shows I’d like to watch. Engaging in more creative tasks, allowing me to express things in ways I haven’t. Just surrounding myself with a positive loving space. And getting better as well. Researching how to take care of myself. And other things. School. Trying to find a job. Learning to drive. I’ll be busy.
PLEASE DONT IGNORE NATIVE AMERICAN PEOPLE TRYING TO BRING ATTENTION TO THE ISSUES GOING ON WITH US
OUR SISTERS AND MOTHERS AND LOVED ONES ARE GOING MISSING AND GETTING MURDERED AND STEPHEN HARPER DOESNT THINK ITS A BIG ENOUGH ISSUE BECAUSE ***NOBODY IS TALKING. NOBODY IS CARING***!!!!!!
Please reblog this I am begging you. Scrolling past this just proves we are being forgotten. Scrolling past this post is why Stephen harper won’t give a shit. There are not enough of us to MAKE SOME NOISE!
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This is too important for me not to mention.
This “Christian” child-rearing manual has led to at least three known deaths through child-abuse.
The book states: “Give 10 licks at a time, more if the child resists. Be careful about using it in front of others — even at church; nosy neighbors might call social workers.”
This is literally a how-to manual on how to abuse and beat your children.
Sign this petition to have Amazon stop selling this hideous thing.
what????
OH MY GOD. Okay stop scrolling and look at me. My mother actually used this book. I am a victim of this piece of literary evil, and let me tell you, it has left me with some seriously deep scars. It got to the point that my brother and I couldn’t even laugh. Laughter was considered “foolishness” and we would literally be struck ten times for it if she heard it. Let me reiterate that.
We could not enjoy ourselves or even be happy without being beaten.
One of the “Christian” cult families introduced this to her and yes, it is basically condoning serious child abuse. I actually personally believe in corporal punishment and let me tell you, THIS IS NOT CORPORAL PUNISHMENT. It is heavy abuse and it’s evil, evil, evil. I’m going to go sign that petition, and so help me, if you know of someone using this book, call Child Protective services immediately. The children of that cult family are now actually being rehabilitated because they grew up like robots. It’s a sick fucking book, okay? Sick. Let’s get this thing banned before it ruins anymore lives.
I am the way I am today because of this hideous thing. I cry every time someone even gently reprimands me. I’m afraid of cutting up in public because I think someone is going to hit me. Worst of all: It taught me to tolerate abuse, that I deserved abuse, and that if someone abused me, I was clearly in the wrong. I can’t possibly begin to tell you how dangerous it has been for me. Thanks to people around me who were raised right, I am only now starting to learn to stand up for myself and that, no, I am not an idiot who deserves verbal, physical, emotional, or mental abuse. I am not just a child who will forever be subject to her power-hungry mother.
Most of all… Children are not animals. And really, who the fuck even treats an animal like that??? Please, if you reblog one thing from me, please let it be this. I don’t want anyone else to go through what I did.
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Leonardo DiCaprio gets attacked by a penguin during a trip to the Arctic in 2006
“OMG MR DICAPRIO I’M A HUGE—OMG ARE YOU ALRIGHT?”
Oscar worthy
The penguin you mean
There are no penguins in the Arctic. So. This is actually in the Antarctic. Or out of spite for not having an Oscar Leo is introducing penguins to the Arctic destroying fragile ecosystems. How dare you Leo.
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I am going to get better. I am going to get better. I am going to get better.
I’m so bored with the notion that you’ve gotta be chiseled and have a beard as a gay man to be valued and sought after like that’s some wack shit that I do not abide by
The Beauty of the Last Agni Kai
The final showdown between Zuko and Azula remains one of the most beautiful scenes in Avatar: The Last Airbender and maybe even the follow up series The Legend of Korra.
I just love how the colours of their destructive firebending clash against one another and spiral across the air.